Sunday, March 14, 2010

?*@#@$%SS

Is it madness to smile to that tune..
Is it madness if you want to dance to it..even though your alone ??
Is it madness to want her to be there before you finish ??
Is it madness to smile even when the last step is finished alone ..
Is it madness to like the pain ?


Saturday, March 6, 2010

Evening at Joe`s

The blazer came on.
he ran his fingers through his long hair ,
wore his black polished shoes
looked at himself in the mirror,
his black trousers with the black jacket
the white shirt with the thin black tie
it was the usual, which still seemed to turn faces
and get those second looks that made these evenings more exciting


"Good evening Ladies and Gentleman
Welcome to Joe`s and we hope you have a lovely evening"

Every night he started with the same line
at the simply named overly charged restaurant
habitually adjusted his black tie
and began with the first song for the evening
a slow number to set the mood
for the innumerable families and couples who had come to have a good time

In between Elvis and Billy Joel
those slender legs held up by cindrella`s heels
walked in and sat alone at the end
her knee length black dress
seemed to kiss every inch of her skin not wanting to let go
the diamond necklace a passionate lover embracing her neck, dazzling in her love
those slender long earrings on the sides of her face
wanting to be as close to her supple cherubic face as she might allow
For the first time he struck the wrong note on his guitar

lost in his notes she seemed to smile
at each of his strung strings
his eyes never left her her eyes dazzling with innocence
filling the room with a warmth that only her touch could explain
then..
then suddenly the entire world around him seemed to stop
the noise had been drowned for nothing could be heard
all seemed to be lost and only she seemed to be there
when her eyes met his and stopped
his strings moved
his lips sang
but his heart stopped.

The door swung open again this time
a hurried walk, a hug and a kiss later
his heart didn`t want to beat this again
the man his age , smartly dressed in a suit
seemed to be one of those bankers
that had everything insured and every step mapped

The noise sprung up again and he seemed to drown
the evening was half way through and his fingers felt tired
the aroma was now filled with the dishes being served
It was another evening at Joe`s

He adjusted his tie and started the evening
syllables were only met with the clinging chandeliers
the whispers were louder and the queer dishes were the usual
then.. it happened
she walked in again in a silken purple gown
her neck adorned with pearls

She sat at the same table
lost in trouble that hid her innocence today
hey eyes still enthralled him
his mind lead his eyes elsewhere but his heart kept winning
the evening was coming to an end
he was surprised to find her company had not arrived
as he was about to finish he looked at the back and saw that she had left

The tie was made tighter and the syllables started
She came in a white dress
sat at the same table ,
her innocence sparkled ,
then he feared it would all happen again
the mind over came and his eyes didn`t veer towards her

She came on evenings and sat there on the table
some days troubled, some days dazzling as ever
her company did not arrive
but she sat through each evening

One evening as he ended he tightened his tie
till he couldn`t anymore
then as he took of his guitar and looked up
she stood there in front of him, in her red dress.
it stopped, the mind had disappeared
alll he could muster was " I hope you enjoyed your evening"

She looked into his eyes, smiled
she said " the food isn`t great here,
the ambiance can get stifling,
its you that keeps bringing me back here "

Adieu

With a gentle kiss
he bid her adieu
walked along he was late
there was no time

Time had to wait
for the material conquests
they were what mattered now

He had reached for his daily butchery
slowly he killed each towering grey
As he moved each of his fingers
he convinced each thought
each motion was just
each swing was right
there was no right or wrong only forward

He toiled till his forearms couldnt bear the ache
he stopped looked around and saw with the same stoned look, what was..
As he walked back all he could think was about her,
her scent seemed to still linger
her touch still on his arms
her silken hair leaning on his shoulder as he held her

Each tired step took him home
where he rested for this ordeal
the glass house showed all those peering eyes
that looked in darkness or light
those eyes lead him to many actions
those eyes lead him to norm and mediocrity
those eyes lead him away ..
From him

He woke with a pain
a daze that didn`t lift
a blur that didn`t clear
He walked straight to the slaughtery
He couldn`t meet her today for there was no time
time could not wait today


Towering Grey`s fell
The mind now was a norm
actions had mediocrity where they didn`t think
the eyes saw no difference

As he walked away
her scent seemed distant
her touch was lost with the scathing rain
her silken hair had been blown away..

Time did not wait..

He ran back blinded through the darkness
searching for her..
Longing for that laughter
Longing for that touch
Longing for that innocence

He ran.. he ran till his sole bled
the world didn`t seem the same
he didn`t know the way
with a stumble he fell in the wet gravel

Bruisen, on his knees
he screamed in pain
he screamed in angst
he screamed in love

how was he to know
that evening he had bid adieu to life?.


ADIEU to Life.

Epitaph of Life

I walked till the edge,
Look back at the angels,
See no qualms, surprise or delight
Just their cold faces looking back at me.
I took a look at the burning fury below,
Took a deep breath and leaped off.
The wind ruffling my hair, making me cry,
I looked back through my fluttering white robes
At the grey faces and bid adieu to my homely heaven!

Looking down to the long fall ahead,
My years passed before my eyes,
The years of discontent, the years of trying to break the shackles,
The years of search, for something better.
The hours of gazing below,
At the recklessness, at the chaos,
Caused by the freedom of choice.
They wished to be so,
And had the freedom to do so
My conformist home knew not
The simple joys of life
For their monotonous doings,
Had wrecked havoc on their minds.
They has forgotten what they had strived to achieve.
To live life with the joy its meant to be
And not a struggle to achieve
The bound doings and thoughts,
Trapped the mind and
Its unseen boundaries
They had created heaven,
No wrong could be done here,
No chances were taken
For in the conformist world
You always tread on the safe right path,
They never change or evolve
Because they`re never allowed to
Those who dare are thrown,
To hells pits below

I ask all the angels,
To take the plunge with me
We create our world,
The way we want it to be,
We have the power to change!
Awaken from your slumber,
Walk till the edge
And take the plunge with me

Bracing for the hit,
I closed my eyes and found myself,
In heaven all over again.
Either burning in hell or rising in heaven,
We can make our world
The way we want it to be.
I Was in "the heaven" ,
I wanted to be ..